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A Vision for Eloise

Written as Mirta Lamay Ayala

From my seat, what it looks like, can be felt day to day; the more it is lived as it grows within each day into the next, it becomes that much more obtainable in a vision than the day allows me to feel, and I wonder, ‘does anyone feel the way I do?

Right now, the vision brings me the daily bread without hunger when just the night before I had eaten during Closing Prayers but ironically it made the food taste that much better. It must be the closing prayer in a night meal. Both helped me heal from gluttony. While I found myself filled last night and satisfied with one simple serving, I wonder if the same meal will satisfy me and bring me sleep that wakes me with ease rather than fear another day may not be promised.

Envisioning perfection from this point looks like:

a morning found to freshly refurbished, reupholstered furniture that takes as long as it is tended with care to detail, remaining the focus for idleness that usually leaves much angst with a house in all its integrity organized as perfectly imperfect as it needs to be just so the sight never causes more stress than necessary. There is no need to leave behind realism. It is every day living that made life realize what the goal was, but I cannot help and wonder if there is something missing that I need.

Thinking about Devotions makes me know that when at least your devotion does not waiver, it is the arrival to Devotions that brings that in. So, chuckle a little because we made it for our Daily Bread and sometimes I really wonder… maybe it comes with bread too, and maybe that makes a lot more sense in the seasoning. A quaint light breeze to break – fast into the day with fellowship sounds counter to the point but may make all the sense for the lighthearted and for those, who never find change in their hearts, would it be possible that something light eaten with the word may bring weight to something small to lift into the day… it makes me wonder.

The breakfast table set with a nutritional respect to its presence, would be:

• One cup of coffee (It is good for the heart, but more than that could be risky business.)

• One 11 ounce cup of cranberry juice

• One 4 ounce orange juice

• One 8 ounce apple juice

  • Of course, the juices are by choice or as quench because sometimes the words need to be spoken.

• Fruits of every kind

• Bread risen

• One honest hard-boiled egg

• Fresh jam and churned butter

much more than this would be excessive for the lightened hope that should be felt when life’s heavy-daunting realizations form.

REST THE DISASTER

REDEMPTION: BOOK FOR THE BIBLE

TESTIMONY MANUSCRIPT

A vision beyond the vision is a room filled with blue seating, there are faint nostalgic faces hard-lined, pressed, and traced with an expression that is present just for a moment because in that moment we all want what we want. (I wanted them to know me, that I am just like them too. It would have been nice to find them in me to be pleasant to experience, that they have someone who appreciates them. And maybe, I wanted that too.) The desire for the goals unachievable before the moment may become obtainable after taking that seat. I know because someone before we found out; either it is left somehow to find or they are there to encounter when you need them. [8:18 PM; 7/2/2026 – R.-C.M. (‘when you need them.’)]

“...I thank you all… we are in a stronger… worry, sad, keep us all…,” during Closing Prayer.

“...our true identity, our true purpose…,” possibly his name, heard in conversation, Andre.

“I took a shower. I put deodorant on…,” [7/2/2026 – R.-C.M.]

This I have felt necessary to clarify more than once in my own life as well, there’s something about being reminded that you need a reminder that does not always provide passage for a reminder.

“...get off the line...”

There is something in a heart-ship that should not find a receiver that has such an easily made decision with a simple tap of a finger. Sometimes hanging up is much easier but easily unnecessary when you do not make the choice to require the decision. Some things are better resolved with a respectable approach; time and a place to only find fit when effort is made first. Attention to the details. Families will always find a way and there is such a thing as a Modern Family. Either way, both scenarios, I can only guess, faith and belief keep a family strong with happiness the abundance that may be promised. Bringing a life into this world may just require considering one or the other; if only where two should not have married, their separation was the beginning to my end but their marriage was my demise from the start. Now, all I can harp on is everyone else and their endings.

“...thank you for everything, thank you for my family…,” [7/2/2026 – Ruth A.]

Two are missed only in a quote because there are moments that feel more important in the moment than a keystroke. Irony is the rhyme that follows a prayer, and that is what I meant.

“...my family and friends, I want to thank him for keeping everyone safe…,” [7/2/2026 – R.-C.M.]

This the part where I have the most fun with everyone, there are people that were present that I want to have speak on their own. Whatever comes to find that comes to mind that coincides with the previous, please, in the lord’s name,

“[Kim]”

“[Kayla]”

There are only so many options and ways to say much more after they speak,

you just never know.